Facilitating the Central Line Lab

      Three days left until "D" day.  "D" for doom, disaster, and demise.  These are some words that come to mind along with the butterflies in the pit of my stomach.  Monday will be my first attempt at facilitation at the college level and let me say, "I am a nervous wreck!!!".  It probably won't take more than 20 minutes or so for the lecture with corresponding PowerPoint but just the thought of it makes my stomach turn tricks. Oh yeah and I also have to demonstrate a dressing change.  In my daily activities as a bedside nurse I assess, dress, flush and infuse fluids, medications, and chemotherapy through central lines.  How is it that I am nervous about teaching someone what I already know?  Doesn't that sound silly?  I'm not sure why I get so nervous.  Probably because I am always worried that there will be questions that I cannot answer.  I am human after all right?  How could I know everything especially with the dynamic nature of healthcare?  You see, that's a rational thought but it is quickly replaced by an irrational thought of failure.  "Failure", is such a strong word but appropriate in so many situations such as "Failure to thrive", "Failure to act", "Failure to Launch" (the last one I think is a movie or something).  At any rate we will see what happens.  Oh,  I forgot to say that I am teaching two different groups.  I hope they won't eat me alive.  Hopefully I will be able to settle in and facilitate student learning in an area that is familiar to me.  After all, isn't this why I chose to get a Masters Degree in Nursing with an emphasis in Education?  What was I thinking?  Three days left until "D" day.  Wish me luck.

Words of Wisdom by Robert F. Kennedy (1966)